addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
a part of me is dead and in the ground
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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Stupid Smart Andy tricked me into thinking his appeal hadn't gotten through. Gave me the shock of my life... Such tricks should be BANNED. -punches Andy
Teachers seemed to be unbelievably forgiving this week. I have been a bad student due to recent emotional and mental.. problems. I just CANNOT study when my mind isn't "in the zone". Same with training. My mind's been so drained lately I can hardly focus. I end up drifting off into dreamland mid-training or mid-lesson. Which really IS NOT GOOD. In fact, I think I should be sent to jail for committing such a sin. RULE NUMBER ONE: FOCUS. Since when did I ever give myself leeway to break that rule.
Perhaps it's the fatigue from 10 consecutive weeks of intensive (? oh dear I think it's going to get worse) academia and training. Whatever the fish it is, it had better disappear from the face of this earth by the end of the March holidays. Best if it could disappear right now. Need to do lots and lots of revision during the holidays. THERE ARE SO MANY TESTS COMING UP! And blocks aren't that far away either... then promos...before you or I know it, A LEVELS WILL BE HERE.
KLSFJDKLSAJLAKJDLAKJ!!!!!!!!!!!!! -panics and dies.
I wonder why I haven't died of a heart attack yet. Anxiety-stricken beings are supposed to get hypertension or whatnot right?
Today I am an unhappy idiot and I wish that from tomorrow onwards I will stop being such a stupid fool and start working harder. If i'm not getting any results it means I AM NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH. So I had better start being more disciplined.. especially when it comes to mugging and training. GRRRR. Me is really very very angry and disappointed with myself. Sigh.
DISCIPLINE = spending less time doing trivial things like BLOGGING. -cries and dies.